The Beginning

Okay so I think it is about time I start..... LOL
For those of you who don't know I am currently serving a 3year sentience in Alamosa community correctional facility. I was charged with attempted theft and since it is not my first run in with the law I was sent here as a last chance if I am to mess up here or again I will go to prison. (lets hope that never happens) On November 3rd 2008 I was sentenced and because I asked nicely I was able to self report (turn my self in) on the 5Th. The biggest reason I did that is so that I could watch the election..... LOL I know I am a dork Soooo I had known for a few months that this was most likely where I would end up. I had plenty of time to prepare if that is what you want to call it. I can't really put in words how I felt in one since I was relieved that after a year of the wonderful court process I was finally going to be able to get this over with and move on with my life, but in another since I was scared crapless so many unknowns about this place. What kind of women will be in there with me will I get beat up, used, hated, liked, or maybe even be forced to become someones bitch... Really I did think that well for a second. But I do have my size to my advantage and believe it or not I am or can be very intimidating. (lucky me) For once in my life I was thankful for being FAT! But besides the woman that I would be in there with I was scared of the staff (client management is what they call themselves) Security is what we call them. What would they be like are they mean will they treat me like crap should I be scared? So much to think about needless to say the night before I had to report I did not sleep much at all... On that morning I got up enough courage to call corrections and find out what I could and could not bring with me. Thank goodness I talked to Melissa (client manager) who was super nice to me. She told me that I could bring 7 of every thing that includes shirts, pants, underwear, and socks. 3 pair of pj's and any hygiene that I need. Yes I have to provide my own every thing including laundry soap, shampoo, soap, tp, ect.... I than said to her I am scared to come how is it there and she said to me "it is all what you make of it" I did not realize than but that statement is what I have had to remember. I got off the phone with her and packed my suit cases, and yes cried a little bit. I did not have to report until 5pm and believe me I waited until exactly 5. I said good bye to mom (not knowing how soon I would be able to see her) and than went to Kira's house to say good bye to her. I hung out there until her husband got there about 4:30 and than kissed the kids and went on my way. Jessie dropped me off and I went in to start this chapter of my life..........

My very first blog! AGGGG

Well here I go! For those of you that know me you know that this past year has been well lets just say a bit challenging. (that might be a bit of an understatement) But I am hoping that this year will be better. This blog is probably going to be like something you have never read before. I will be writing about myself from time to time but most of this will be about the day and life inside community corrections. For some of you I am sure you are thinking why would she write about that..... Well I will tell you some of what you read will shock you, surprise you, disgust you, make you laugh, and just may make you cry.